When I think that I’m only 16 years old, it scares me, and it’s strange that the number of years I've been alive is frightening. The thought that the rest of my life is determined by what I do in the next few years is intimidating, to the point where my decisions are always doubted and second guessed. Everyone has that one break from reality, where you can escape into your imagination and forget about everything you struggle with. My break from reality is music. I love everything about music; the way it can influence your emotions, the fact that people out there have so much talent to be able to impact people’s lives in the way they do with just sound, lyrics and instruments is beyond my understanding and something that will never cease to amaze me. Talent is something that I always admire, whether it be in Arts, Music, or Writing. Seeing someone be so outstanding at something is inspiring, and always pushes me to try harder so I become someone else’s inspiration.

Although I have no interest in following a music career, some of my most enjoyable experiences are going to concerts with my best friend. The sheer excitement of seeing our favourite bands is a feeling I will always have, no matter how many concerts I go to. The nerves mixed with excitement and suspense is one of the best feelings. Especially when it’s my best friend’s favourite band, seeing her face when they come on stage and start with a low rumbling base is unforgettable and the journey home is always full of her explaining what happened even though I was there. Most people have a best friend, someone they can rely on and have a good time with, but I honestly think my best friend is someone who I will spend the rest of my life with; I want to see her grow up, get married and make decisions. She doesn't have things easy and I want to see her learn that things won’t always be the same, I want to see her talent grow so I can admire her ever more than I do now and even more that I thought possible.

My family are also a big part in my life, other than supporting me throughout everything and putting up with my sudden mood changes, they’re always going to be an aspect of my life I will think myself very lucky with. I live with my Mum, Dad and Brother and somewhere out there I also have a sister called Jodie. I don’t really know anything about her, only that she has a daughter and she once lived with us, I think I was about 5 when she left but she’s become a taboo subject in my house. It doesn't really bother me although it has always intrigued me about what happened. It’s strange to think I have a sister because I know nothing about her. I remember in primary school my friends would say they wanted an older sister to share clothes with and I would catch myself agreeing, and then I would remember I do have a sister. I wouldn't even recognise her if I saw her so in some aspects I wouldn't even consider her a sister. To me the term sister doesn't just mean sharing the same parents, how could I call someone my sister when I could be sitting right next to them and not know?

In some ways I'm embarrassed to be sharing this with everyone but I'm also very excited to get to know everyone in my class and I'm not really sure how long this is meant to be, or how interesting it’s going to be to read, so I apologise. I'm also terrified about English; I don’t consider myself a good writer so choosing English probably wasn't the best option, but I really want to learn how to influence emotions with words, it interests me so much and I'm so jealous of anyone who can write that well.

My life is pretty simple, I have nothing exceptional or unique about me, but sometimes that isn't a bad thing. My life revolves around school, friends, family and music and that’s how I want it to stay forever, I don’t want to grow up and get a job or learn about taxes and politics, I want to stay in my childhood forever.